Before this life, something of me
spun with the chaos of an endless sea.
No life had I, and yet I did see
how I craved a cosmos of order and peace.
A systematic universe was for me.
Born later with life, a fully formed man,
I searched in a world, both tranquil and bland.
I longed for a love, with balance and peace
and the glory of a calm, with the comfort of ease.
In my life, wanted desires well-nourished.
But then, what is life? Who am I
in this search to be here and why?
As I searched my world for temporal peace.
Two vicious conflicts raged within me:
One as I sleep,
I war with a universe in chaos;
The other awake,
is my war with myself – in combat,
I am, with my own human consciousness.
That old inner universe yearns on and on.
Then shall I die. Just then,
no longer alive, but I’m swirling within
part of the universe in chaos again.
My Search for Order by Bill Reynolds 6/12/2017
Look both ways and mind the gaps, but chaos owns the universe.